Expressing my genuine emotions makes me feel so uncomfortable that I end up making fun of myself just after that in order to balance the possible awkward moment I'll have with myself. In other words,If I say something serious and true about my emotions to someone, to anyone, I seriously have to make a stupid joke and make that person laugh just afterwards.
Well at least I got a whole bunch of the x factor videos to watch for the whole night and Im almost one hundred percent sure that all I need is to have a long shower and brush my teeth for 10 minutes to feel more optimistic about my future.
See here's what I believe or something I have learned in college Im not sure;
You build a new identity with every single language you pick up and that new identity which comes with the new language is utterly different from the one you already have. For me, my English identity is much comfier with using words, talking to people and saying what's on his mind. He can just go ahead and say hi to a girl and ask if we could spend some time together.
Im not sure about the other one though. That one is more of a moody type. That one thinks writting is lame, talking is useless. He's more of a person who enjoys picture pages in a book rather than the pages of words. And sadly, older you get, you see less pictures in books and afterall you have to admit the fact adult books does not contain picture pages.
One hundred percent personal. I write for myself in order to get back here certain times a year or two, read what I wrote and have a good laugh at how stupid I was back then. So unless you're a stalker, what you're about to read is gonna sound like a bunch of crap that makes no sense.
Well, that's what we call "inner voice"
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