17 Temmuz 2015 Cuma

Man its so frustrating to be forced to watch yourself grow up and grow older
Its like a God given torture to set up a clock for someone and letting him know that its gonna stop eventually.
Id be happier to live my life as a wild animal rather than a miserable human being.
I dont feel nice at all. not because of the heavy burden of being alive of course. hahaha Im not on that level yet.thank god. Its probably because of the cheapest bottle of wine I got  from the grocery  store that I have been drinking for the last 2 days.

8 Temmuz 2015 Çarşamba

I'd make an amazing philosopher if i was a tiny bit stronger thinker to order all that clustered thoughts bugging my head. This mediocre level of sanity gives me nothing but terrible headaches in the midnight and crappy artwork in the morning after.

Oh boy, don't I sound like Will Smith's son.
No one wants to live forever yet no one wants to 'actually' die either.

26 Mayıs 2015 Salı

For about ten years now, or maybe even more, I have  been programmed to set my alarm about an hour earlier just to make sure I got another hour to sleep and feel happy about it.
Life has its ridiculously weird ways to show you the  most stupid and yet comforting ways to simply enjoy little moments.
It's a pity those moments are pretty hard to discover all the time.
And most of the time you just find it easier to think of yourself as a man trying to climb the mount Everest on flip flops and just keep feeling sorry for yourself until you eventually get bored of that gloomy feeling and decide setting your alarm two hours earlier this time.
Hopelessly hoping that it should double that so called euphoria.

It's a cycle,
It will pass.
Then again, it's a cycle,
It'll come back.

24 Mayıs 2015 Pazar

Gravity works pretty strongly on me. No wonder I keep sitting instead of acting.

29 Mart 2015 Pazar

Im thinking of a whole bunch of cliche crap about love and friendship and life at the moment.
this time I`ll keep all that crap to myself though.

25.

9 Mart 2015 Pazartesi

that's it.
I'm ready to live the rest of my life with a plain gray tshirt, some jeans and a pair of new balance sneakers in a cabin filled with the heaviest stock of paper, pencils and peanut butter.

17 Şubat 2015 Salı

That picture of my hands holding a piece of paper written my name on it is 6 years old. 


25 years old and hopelessly seeks happiness in buying new furniture.



20 Ocak 2015 Salı

In case you wonder what chaged in two years,
the answer is a big fat nothing.
A higher salary, an older face and a bigger hole in my "poor unfortunate soul" if those count.

17 Ekim 2013 Perşembe

People expect me to be the amusing one. like all the time.
And I have a feeling it is because I'm not the tall one.

21 Mayıs 2013 Salı

If youre a guy and you live on your own , no matter what you do, someday you end up with a donut on your plate for dinner instead of a proper meal.

26 Şubat 2013 Salı

see I told you, I don't tend to write about happy stuff that's going on in my life. If I could, I would tell you that, suprisingly, I am only a puppy away from fulfilling my minor life goals.

16 Ocak 2013 Çarşamba

"But I shouldn't complain  cause it don't matter, There are more wishes  than stars."



I have just noticed I don't enjoy kinder surprise anymore.
The apocalypse. Im afraid I might have just started it.  Its about 4 oclock in the morning and i have just visited the fridge for a snack and instead of a chocolate bar, i've eaten a whole bowl of salad which has some cauli and broccoli inside. Prepare for the end my friends. This is not normal. This is far from normal.

13 Ocak 2013 Pazar

Don't get me wrong, It's not that I have this habitual gloomy mood on me all the time. It's just that I don't quite feel like writting about it when I feel seriously happy and calm about something.
There's life on one side, which constantly keeps reminding me to be patient in order to get what I want and be happy with it,
and there's me on the other side; the guy who chooses to take the stairs all the time just because he does not even have the patience to wait for the elevator to come; the guy who flushes the toilet while he is still peeing just because he cannot handle the pressure of waiting for something; the guy who has always been in trouble handling the concept of patience itself.

9 Ocak 2013 Çarşamba

my lack of motivation blocks my imagination even for masturbating.

26 Aralık 2012 Çarşamba

The possible new year's eve scenario for me is me sitting on my bed with my "mr. white" dry coughs which is slightly becoming kind of chronic, reminding me once again that I have to quit smoking or else Im gonna die young  like M.I.A says in that song. A glass of chocolate milk mixed with a shot of jagermeister will be the only drink I'll have for that night. and I'll be diguising offline on the internet in case  someone sees me and thinks I'm a lameass manchild.

As the surprise of that  precious night , my lack of will to do anything might kill me or I might try to hang myself  with a rope decorated with some sleigh bells  around my neck in order to look like a dead body with a festive soul afterwards.

happy new year.

29 Kasım 2012 Perşembe

I think its pretty cool that I'll have the privilege to brag about having lived my childhood in the pre-internet era when I become a grandparent. It will be fun watching them  trying to imagine life without the internet.

and speaking of getting older, I think everyone should cut the crap about that "time's just not passing oh my god" shit. It passes as fast as fuck. Have you ever met a 50 year old saying "oh damn, I felt like its been 200 years!" when asked? NO. Everbody says that they can not believe it has passed so fast. They say they still feel like they are in their 20's.
For me, there is not another concept scarier  than the concept of becoming an elderly man.
I cannot stand the fact that its inevitable and its going to feel like it happened in the blink of an eye.

27 Kasım 2012 Salı

I believe that all around the world, there are people who are questioning their lives in the middle of the night, in front of the dim light coming from inside of the refrigerator, staring at some food. I believe there are tons of people who wake up from a vivid dream every night and think they should seriously remember that one in the morning and are too lazy to pick up a pen and write a little reminder for the dream they just had and feel like they have forgotten the most important clue for life when its morning  and they dont remember their dreams.
I believe that happens all the time all around the world.
I believe it is not just me.

applause for the cheesy

"isn't it ironic, we adore the ones who ignore us, ignore the ones who adore us, love the ones who hurt us and hurt the ones who love us."

26 Kasım 2012 Pazartesi

I love your mess

You call it coincidence I call it nothing but whenever I watch a movie that impresses me to a freaking  great extent,those times happen to be just before I feel too weird about myself that I should pick a random movie to watch just to clear my head.
and then bam! I choose the greatest movie just randomly! not by a trailer but maybe a friend suggest.
and just afterwards I try to find something in it that I believe It could change the way I see things. It might be just a simple sentence, or a character or a place. anything.
This time it is a book that I have  heard of but never really know what it is exactly about. I do not want to find out what it's about to be honest. not until I start reading and discovering it myself.
I just wanna click on the button that says "buy it now", pay for it, wait for it to arrive and hopefully feel extraordinary when I read it.
Usually it never works.
Not this time I hope.

15 Kasım 2012 Perşembe

In a nutshell, here is one of the rarest platforms where we can make ourselves look cooler, richer, smarter. It might be the only platform where we can give the most accurate advertisement about who we want to be.
So let them slay. Because deep inside, we all know that  this is not the place for the happy, not for the satisfied.  All in all, we're aware of the fact that the internet is for people, who are searching for something or someone that does not exist in their lives.
And no one's completely satisfied. They are just offline, disguising.
That's it.

Excuse my depressed words, It's most probably due to the lack of peanut butter inside my veins.

11 Kasım 2012 Pazar

I guess I'll always be missing that one person who has been the only one that makes me feel so happy, so sad, so close and so far at the same time.

7 Kasım 2012 Çarşamba

PMS is just another classy term used to make your bitch side sound less cheap isnt it?

I bet no one remembers the last time you laid on the carpet watching tv from a really close distance. I bet the ground is no longer as comfier as it was years ago.

2 Kasım 2012 Cuma

Isnt it ironic how the words fat and fit almost sound the same. almost.

1 Kasım 2012 Perşembe

I guess I might have the strongest urge to grow sexual interest for comedian women.